Returning

It has been a long time since I posted. I think I've grown to a point where this blog as an outlet has served its purpose. Most of my thoughts and feelings about how I feel are now on the blog, and as such there's not much left to write. I'm not open about being gay and I don't really think too much about it on a daily basis. I guess it's because of that that I don't really have much to blog about anymore.

Lately I haven't really put much of my thoughts down because I'd subconsciously decided that I didn't really want to think about my situation. But has that been helpful? I couldn't tell you. I guess in some ways it has allowed me to go through the days without over-analyzing how I feel or the consequences it has. I usually take each day as it comes and hold back the feelings I know I shouldn't be having while trying to express them in a better way.

I've been over him for a while now, but I've found myself attracted to different people lately. Not a strong 'painful-love' attraction by any means (yet), but a worrying trend nonetheless. I've even found myself being attracted to friends younger than me, which is also something I wish wasn't happening.

It scares me because I care about my friends a lot, but I have to wonder-- where does the platonic end and the sexual begin?