"And though I may be all wrong for the guy..."
Glee. I've really enjoyed this first season. A lot of people have bemoaned how the show has lost some of its spark, but I don't really see it. I love musicals and Broadway, and I still love the show very much.
The addition of Idina Menzel to the show was a nice touch, though I admit I didn't think much of her at first. The first time I saw her was in Enchanted, and I didn't think she was all that pretty. Until I heard her sing in Glee. Gosh, now I love this woman.
Right now I have her Glee rendition of Funny Girl playing on repeat. And it got me thinking-- why do I love this song so much? Well, mostly because it sets off a whole range of emotions in me, most of which can be summed up in one word.
Wistfulness.
It makes me feel wistful. Like there's this impossible melancholy and sad longing within me that I cannot really express, all complex and tangled up in anger and love and yearning and sorrow and desire and teary-eyed smiles.
I told one of my best friends today about how our musical tastes are all a result of our different experiences and upbringings, and how different songs and music affect us differently. Well, I think wistful songs really get to me because my life is one big wistful song.
The addition of Idina Menzel to the show was a nice touch, though I admit I didn't think much of her at first. The first time I saw her was in Enchanted, and I didn't think she was all that pretty. Until I heard her sing in Glee. Gosh, now I love this woman.
Right now I have her Glee rendition of Funny Girl playing on repeat. And it got me thinking-- why do I love this song so much? Well, mostly because it sets off a whole range of emotions in me, most of which can be summed up in one word.
Wistfulness.
It makes me feel wistful. Like there's this impossible melancholy and sad longing within me that I cannot really express, all complex and tangled up in anger and love and yearning and sorrow and desire and teary-eyed smiles.
I told one of my best friends today about how our musical tastes are all a result of our different experiences and upbringings, and how different songs and music affect us differently. Well, I think wistful songs really get to me because my life is one big wistful song.
'Funny'. Did you hear that? 'Funny.'
Yeah, the guy said, "Honey, you're a funny girl."
That's me, I just keep them in stitches, doubled in half
And though I may be all wrong for the guy, I'm good for a laugh
I guess it's not funny, life is far from sunny
When the laugh is over, and the joke's on you
A girl ought to have a sense of humor
That's one thing you really need for sure when you're a funny girl
The fellow said 'a funny girl'
Funny how it ain't so funny
Funny girl
Good reads
I've been reading a few good articles that made me nod my head in agreement.
- What it's like to be you - Thoughts on the whole "homosexuality is just like any another sin" approach.
- What Would Jesus Do If Invited To A Gay Wedding? - A look at why it'd be important to attend a gay friend's wedding.
Returning
It has been a long time since I posted. I think I've grown to a point where this blog as an outlet has served its purpose. Most of my thoughts and feelings about how I feel are now on the blog, and as such there's not much left to write. I'm not open about being gay and I don't really think too much about it on a daily basis. I guess it's because of that that I don't really have much to blog about anymore.
Lately I haven't really put much of my thoughts down because I'd subconsciously decided that I didn't really want to think about my situation. But has that been helpful? I couldn't tell you. I guess in some ways it has allowed me to go through the days without over-analyzing how I feel or the consequences it has. I usually take each day as it comes and hold back the feelings I know I shouldn't be having while trying to express them in a better way.
I've been over him for a while now, but I've found myself attracted to different people lately. Not a strong 'painful-love' attraction by any means (yet), but a worrying trend nonetheless. I've even found myself being attracted to friends younger than me, which is also something I wish wasn't happening.
It scares me because I care about my friends a lot, but I have to wonder-- where does the platonic end and the sexual begin?
Lately I haven't really put much of my thoughts down because I'd subconsciously decided that I didn't really want to think about my situation. But has that been helpful? I couldn't tell you. I guess in some ways it has allowed me to go through the days without over-analyzing how I feel or the consequences it has. I usually take each day as it comes and hold back the feelings I know I shouldn't be having while trying to express them in a better way.
I've been over him for a while now, but I've found myself attracted to different people lately. Not a strong 'painful-love' attraction by any means (yet), but a worrying trend nonetheless. I've even found myself being attracted to friends younger than me, which is also something I wish wasn't happening.
It scares me because I care about my friends a lot, but I have to wonder-- where does the platonic end and the sexual begin?
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