I'm scheduled to lead worship in church tomorrow.

And here I'm sitting here feeling discouraged. I don't know what it is... It could be just the weight of the planning-- which songs to pick, what the best order would be, what should be done to make it conducive to a better worship atmosphere, whether the congregation will take to that new song I'm introducing, etc.

Or it could just be that maybe, once again, after everything's been said and done, I still feel inadequate. I still feel like I shouldn't be up there leading the praise and worship. I still feel like I'm out of place. As if I don't belong somehow...

But I know that no matter how much I try, I cannot make people worship Him. All I can do is prepare the songs as best I can and lead the team in praising His name... What the congregation does is up to them.

But you know, despite all that I've been through, despite all my feelings, the despair, and how unworthy I feel, all it takes is to hear the voice of God in worship to remind me how wrong I am about myself. He reminds me that worship's all about Him, and that it always has been.

He reminds me that when the devil is dredging up the guilt and memories of past sins, I can seek refuge in His shadow. I can find rest in Him. And for that I am eternally grateful.

Thank You God, that Your faithfulness endures always, where mountains fall and reason fails. When I feel like I'm dying inside, when I feel like I'm going to be overwhelmed by the turmoil within me, You calm the raging seas and You calm the storms in me over and over again. My heart will praise throughout the night where singing seems a sacrifice.

All I know is I find rest in You... Your grace is all I need.


Lyrical credits:
Rest In You by Hillsong United